Hi! I'm Fay* —

I created Fayth.Org to document my explorations of “Higher Power” throughout my very messy 12-step recovery journey.

*To stay true to 12-step anonymity, I’m keeping my identity anonymous, but my name means 'Fay' in English.

This is NOT your average recovery ministry

It’s a raw, honest glimpse at how a religious abuse survivor like me grapples with 12-step Christian recovery. I explore religious orthodoxy, UFO/UAP phenomena when mixed with belief and technology, exploring the roots of new-age and new-thought, and general underbellies of faith movements in my life and as it pertains to modern culture.

Here, I anonymously share my truth, hope, and light in my Journal through recovery. I deconstruct toxic religious and spiritual beliefs, and freely reconstruct new beliefs to heal.

I’m beginning my path into becoming a “new-monk” in an experimental online new monastic order through the Anglican Church, mixing ancient traditions (Benedictan, Carmelite and Franciscan) with 12-step recovery.