Dearest J,

I’m not exactly sure what’s next for me. I’ve been reading astrology stuff by Demetra George (who’s the most accurate Hellenistic astrologer still living today) but I don’t even know if it’s really all that accurate … I mean, it COULD be but the amount of work it’d take me to understand all of it is actually quite overwhelming. As in, total clusterfuck type of knowledge — and I do NOT also know if given how “Neptunian” I am that’d it’d really allow for me to even create understanding out of it.

As I learn about it, I realize how “not clear” and “general” it kind of all is … because LIFE ITSELF is COMPLICATED.

I’ve been reading a verse of Proverbs everyday as well, as well as a day of ACIM a day (which is increasingly annoying me).

I’m reading a bunch of books otherwise, including “The Creative Act” by Rick Rubin, which is basically a New Thought text which is also annoying me to no end. Yes I agree with his artistic angle, but it really also annoys me how much he speaks of “UNIVERSE” and “SOURCE” etc — as if it’s NOT God as he panders to everyone. Before his direct reference to Ecclesiastes in his first chapter (without attributing it to Ecclesiastes, which made me sick) he wrote: “The universe functions like a clock” … I mean … OK. Everyone thinks he’s a genius, yet in his UN-GENIUSness, he’s quoting the Bible without saying so. How un-deep.

And lastly, I’m nearly finished with “Faith After Doubt” by Brain Mclaren, which is so fantastic I might read it again, lol.

I’ve also managed to NOT purchase a catholic cope via eBay which kind of had my name all over it (namely, it was very New-Mexican, and being sold out of a vintage store in Vermont). UGH it was gorgeous honestly. I don’t think I could pay more than $300 for it, but even still, I think that’s too much.