This morning I was speaking with my sponsor, who is a Christian. Though she’s not a fundamentalist, she realizes the difficulties I’ve had with the faith and actually said something really awesome to my yesterday. I wish I could’ve recorded it to re-listen to.

I told her I was re-reading A Course in Miracles, and she said she was proud of me because she knew how much trauma that caused when I threw it out.

However, she went on to say I’m discerning not to accept everything hook line and sinker. And so, it is what it is.

I guess I’m still discovering and trying to find my spiritual path amongst recovery. But I found that this video was a really good breakdown of the beliefs of the course.

Though I’m not sure I can 100% believe all of it anymore, it still is helpful.

I also ordered the 2nd version of the Sparkly Version of A Course in Miracles and I’m EXTREMELY excited about it, because it capitalizes letters which I think might be helpful.

I’ve been reading the digitzed version of it and taking notes of it in Zinnea, but at this point, yeah I don’t know. I think I just need to stop thinking about monetization and money and how to make money with this website and blog, and what I’m going to do … and how I’m going to sell things, because honestly this is such deep spiritual work. I am still questioning it all. But I’ll figure something out.

In the meantime, stay wholly.

<3